victim of circumstances and misunderstanding. It gave me the key back to my happiness. I was suddenly attracting peace and stability. I wasn’t struggling against the stream of life , i was floating while watching the stars and clouds above me.
When I joined AA, I had no intention of staying in the program. I just wanted to see what it entailed and return back to my binge drinking lifestyle.
I always wondered what I would do with all this extra time, now that Im not exhausted from the drama and abuse of my body. All that time magically magnetised God to me. Creativity shone though me. I suddenly became constructive, I had a full day, free from stress cos I know my Higher Power has the steering wheel. Eventually I had enough light to share with others. I thought about others and not in a self seeking way. I saw the serenity my sponsor had and wanted to replicate that in my life. I want to thank her for selflessly giving me this gift. God is in us, in each and every divine being.If we can only let the light in, connect and magnify it to let it shine in our communities and families.
After my second meeting, my now sponsor approached me and asked if I wanted her as my sponsor. I was apprehensive as I wanted to sit on the outskirts of AA and wasn’t ready to get involved. I said yes thinking “what have I got to lose” but didn’t want to start with step work right away. After a month I finally got around to starting step work. Over the weeks and months, my sponsor and I were baffled at how many similarities we shared in our story. I thought I was alone in the way I behaved and the traumas I had experienced but by her sharing her experience I was able to feel better about myself. I had never met someone so alike me in terms of how we operated.
I only have gratitude to my higher power and my sp onsor for making me trust in something bigger than myself, the magic of the universe, once again. To be Reborn! What glorious joy!
I knew this couldn’t be serendipity alone and that there is something so profound about this shared experience. This affirmed to me that I am in the right place and path, and to keep going.
I haven’t looked back since that day and I am so glad that my sponsor made me understand myself better so I can be sober today.
I am Alvin, a hapless but grateful junkie and potential alcoholic (if I imbibe once more, I reckoned).
She’s really nothing like me, I thought We have nothing in common, I thought She didn’t drink like me, Or do the things I did. She’s got a husband and children, I don’t. She’ll never understand me.
I could not stopped using drugs for more than 3 and a half weeks even when attending daily one 12 steps meeting until I started attending AA (alongside one other A’s meetings and working the first of the 4 steps with a sponsor from AA, of whom I am forever beholden to. I think I am her first NA sponsee.0
She is kind, calm and together though… Maybe she can help me get like that too? She’s told me, in no uncertain terms, what I need to do. I’ve nothing to lose….I want what she has.
With weekly an hour meetings in person or in zoom and texting and calls almost everyday, I had achieved the longest sobriety from methamphetamine iv ;- 3 months and a few days. I have had also averted developing a poly addiction to alchohol while trying to do the steps with her. d Her name will also be a fragrance in my heart.🌹
6+ years later and I’m still sober I’m calmer, kinder and more together than I’ve ever been. I’ve benefitted directly from this wonderful woman’s recovery and from her sponsor before her. Our relationship has blossomed and she is now both sponsor and true friend.
You see I only saw the differences whereas she saw the similarities. She practiced step 12 and I benefited directly and have been able to help many women myself since, and so it goes on. What a gift she is. I’m truly grateful.
While I wouldn’t want to compare my sponsor to a bat, he has an exceptional ability to listen. He asks me how I’m doing. I start off by telling him I’m doing great and tell him what I’ve been up to. He keeps listening. Then I tell him how I’m really doing. He listens and then listens some more. When I finally come to a halt, he asks some questions that show he’s really been listening. Only when I’ve answered them does he start to offer an opinion.